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SHIZZ

I'M GOING TO GO CRAZY.

Why cant it go away!

hi

There are a lot of things that changes over time.

Sometimes change is wanted.

or needed.

or inevitable.

Sometimes it is irreversible.

Since last year, many friendships have faded away.

But new ones have formed.

I dont see the people I used to be close to as much as I used to.

But that doesnt mean I dont care about you.

Because the thing good about close friends is that even if you havnt talked to eachother for a week a month, when you see eachother again you still feel like you can confide in them and count on them for support.

Whether that be advice. Or just someone to listen to you.

Even though so many things have happened during the time we have met.

You are still the same.

From the day I met you till now, you are still the kind, caring and dependable person I admire and look up to.

Like back then, like now, you still manage to make me feel better after talking to you.

You still treat me better than I deserve.

Even if you are just pretending that nothing has changed.

I still thank you.

Because you're support means a hell of a lot to me.

So many things has changed since last year.

But I have to thank those people who are still my close friends.

Even if we dont see eachother 5 times a week. I still feel like nothing has changed when I am with you.

Thanks for making me laugh when its raining.

Thanks for comforting me when I need a hug.

Thanks for telling me off when I need it.

Thanks for being truthful.

But most of all

Thanks for accepting me as who I am.

The good and the bad included.

I LOVE YOU BABIES!!!

Yes im being incredibly corny and mushy.

But I just wanted to remind you that I still care for you.

Even if we might not talk as much.

You should all know who you are :)

♥

S

SOS

NEED.
COFFEE.



proper coffee
the packet coffee i brought from coles is so gross and tasteless
:(

4hrs to go

Regret.

I knew it would come to this.

MIDSEM EXAM IN 8 HOURS
ON ALL THAT WE HAVE COVERED IN THE FIRST 5 WEEKS

AND GUESS WHAT?
Im attempting to go though all of that RIGHT NOW seeing as I did no studying in those 5 weeks.

Started to proper study at 9pm today.
AND IM STILL SUMMARISING THE SECOND SOCIOLOGY LECTURE
omg im dooooomedddd

I have to leave the house at 7
Therefore have to eat/shower/dress/packbag at 6am

So now I have 6 hours to get through the rest of sociology
AND START ON anatomy + biology + pharmacology +whatever else there is

WHY DO I ALWAYS DO THIS!!! leave it to the goddamn last minute
RAGE >:[


Oh and btw if i hear anyone saying YOU"LL BE FINE COS YOU"RE SUNNY SUN then please slap yourself because otherwise i will do it for you -.-
NO I WILL NOT BE FINE
AND NO I AM NOT BEING MODEST ABOUT 'NOT STUDYING'
BECAUSE I ACTUALLY HAVE. NOT. STUDIED. FOR. ANY. OF. THIS
understand my simple english?

NO I DID NOT SECRETLY NERD IT OUT AT HOME IN THE PART 5 WEEKS
I
ACTUALLY
DID
NOTHING

arrghhh!!!!!!!!!! why cant people understand that -.-
if you want to say something then suggest something that can actually HELP
cos im peeing myself ARRGHHH


Im actually reallyreallyREALLy worried i wont pass.

95% chance of me failing this exam.
But i guess its good in that it will be a massive wakeup call.
SUNNYSUN YOU ARE NO LONGER ON HOLIDAY
AND YOU ARE NO LONGER IN VCE WHERE YOU CAN GET AWAY WITH LAST MINUTE CRAMMING.

OHEMGEE
am i going to fail for the first time in my life :S


Today in the library darren, phil, tony, jonlee, eren, eunice were discussing what we had to know for the exam
and i sat there feeling like the STUPIDEST pile of poo ever
because i never learnt any of that.
some of it sounded farmiliar
but only the words. no idea what they actually meant.


:(


I think i can get through sociology and anatomy
but thats only 40% of the marks
AND I WONT REMEMBER ALL OF IT cos wayy to much to remember

as for bio im really screwed cos theres like about 300 pages in the LIFE textbook im meant to know
A hA hA hA
i really should have studied all those times i went on fb
Today was the first time i actually sat down and READ the lecture notes and tried to write my own notes for them.


IM SUCH A FAIL MED STUDENT



yes i know im ranting
i didnt say you had to read this


THANKGOD i dont have fb right now
or i might have been tempted again
BUT IM PRETTY PROUD OF MYSELF 3hours of solid study
only had a 10min break in between to eat a pear AHAHAH
so although i hate to admit it
leotard you actually did a good thing :)


OKAY.
ALLNIGHTER.
STUDY.
CRY IN A TOILET IF I FAIL.

♥
s

102

LOVE IS IN THE AIRRRR♥

I just got told that someone was a very lucky girl today TEEHEE!
NAWW IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU.
I hope this time it works out better than previous experiences...
and that you DONT do the thing you always do after like a month AHAHAH

ALSO i would like to wish you THE BEST OF LUCK for the thing you are doing right now :)
SORRY THE REST OF YOU GUYS WHO DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT IM GOING ON ABOUT.
Confidentiality mwahahah
BuT YEH! I reallyreally hope you make it.
♥ you sooo much xxxxxx!

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As time goes by
And I see more of the world
I start to question all the things I used to think were true.
Not everyone is as nice like I used to think.
Things you think had no meaning can be interpreted completely differently.
Theres so much stuff that I start to feel unsure about.

By now most people have moved on from the childhood fantasies of fairytales and happy endings.
Like youry♥ told me today...she realised ages ago
that fairytales dont happen.
I used to think everyone would have their own story at some point in their lives.
But now it seems that only a VERY few people ever experience anything remotely like those asian dramas.
Its so hard to find that pure and innocent love we all read about in our bedtime stories in this world.

Yet I still choose to be a kid
And continue dreaming.
Am I being stupid and naive?

♥
s

Ready?

Its 10:25am
Im in mums office.
after printing out templates for the medical histories we're meant to take today.
Thats right....ALFRED HOSPITAL
My first time every stepping into a hospital as a meddie.


I was so excited before.
But now im chickening out :S
I dont know how to do a medical history.
WHat if i screw up?
What if i get one of the 'dealing wiht emotion' cases and cant think of anything to say?
All i want right now is a mask that says CONFIDENCE.
But in order to have one...i have to make it myself. right?

OHDEAR

♥
s

no not again :O

i feel like the weather

HAILLLL

hitler

AHAHH JKS

ew

felt sick yesterday so slept at 8;30

full 15hrs sleep

and still feel gross today?

Cant breathe properly. No energy. Feel a bit like throwing up. ANND just overall weirdd.

:(:(

HEY GUESS WHAT! i didnt go on fb for a full DAY yesterday

not cause i was limiting myself but because i just wasnt in the mood.

and when im not in the mood for facebook theres DEFINITELY something wrong.

BTW this color is meant to look like puke >:]

but yes despite the fact that i didnt go on fb the whole day

i still havnt studied yet this weekend

and im reallyreally behind in bio

and theres an exam on friday

and site visit on wednesday

and :(

YES IM HAVING A SOOK

makes me feel slightly better

..

no not really

laters

♥
s

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BTW

i miss you :)

i gotta feeling that tonights gonna be a good night♥

EASTER BREAK HAS COME AND GONE
but memories you shall never leave me♥

most wild break ive everrr had AHAHAH
literally going out every night
but if you think about its only a WEEK
andd my excuse is that IM CATCHING UP ON ALL THAT I MISSED THE PAST 18 YEARS


okok because meddies are retarded
we started break last thursday
and we start tmr
:D which is why im up at 3am blogging when i have like 2 group project thingys to do
and a online quiz
and did i mention actual STUDYING?
but anyway
here goes

LAST MONDAY
pretty sure i went to glenny for dinner LOL
AHH thats right
went with ray to stareast cos we ceebs koreanbbq
met up with chrissy and ngoc and FOUND OUT THEY WERE GOING OUT
wth no one tells me this stuff!

LAST TUESDAY
FIRST ASEAN MEETING!!
ofcourse the best part was going to stareast afterwards AHHAH
then cam drove me&leotard back to matthersons cos i was meant to 'study' and he had exams the next day? :O

LAST WED
I FRKN MISSED MY DENTIST APPOINTMENT :(
but anywayys got to glen
met up with kouhei and talked a bit
then sat down at that coffeeplace i cant remmeber with glenbums
trained to city and had dinner at that dodgey-cheap-asian-dumplings-place in chinatown with linh TG and ray
AHHAHA funfunnn
think we just went home after that?

THURSDAY
had NO CLASS!!
butt went to monash anyway because of asean ball table deposits
went to matterson and saw anthea rach and eren
then left them to go home and pretty up
NIGHT OF THE MUCH ANTICIPATED ASEAN LOUNGE NIGHT!! wooo
LOLOL met arthurlim @ the trainstation! funnyas. i thot he was jus a random listening to the train times
anyways met up with linh on the train
waited at flinders for the glenny gang to show up cos we're too noob to find our own way there AHAHAH
got to the place and YEAH had funfun
chris wants me give him a shoutout so here it is
CHRIS KISSED A CAT AND HE LIKED ITT...THE TASTE OF HER CHERRY CHAPSTICK
WOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dont kill me :)

nah overall the night was preetty awesome
esp cos linhs camera didnt make me look as retarded as i expected AHHAHA
ALSO cos SOO MANY PEOPLE WERE THERE! and not randoms too!!
the mount girls - rach, ken(is agirl), sushi, siu, nancy, sharon, mailinh, winnie, alex
the wild dogs from asean camp
even saw bomal and gavin and them
but yeah EPIC night
cabbed back to glenny and got driven home.

FRIDAY
hmm dont remmeber what i did during the day
probs woke up really late and stuff
BUTT met em at glenny station
NAT CALLED US SAYING SHE JUST GOT OFF THE PLANE aHAHHA
somehow we persuaded her to come with us to chius birthdya thing
got to MC & met up with leotard and chiu and them
NAT CAME!!!!!!!! wooooooo
IMISSYOUSODAMNMUCH♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
anywayys went into chogao bar
pretty nice place :D
ahahha good night just catching up with the guys
we should seriouslyc ome up with a NAME for the group
and NOT linhs KK idea
anywayy had to look after angela a bit but it was preetty amusing cos she kept repeating the same stuff to me!
hungryjacks after! oily food after alchy mmmm

caught the last train to bh with leotard cos hes so retarded he has to leave the car in BOXHILL sheesh
and dont blame it on eric either
>:[
mm where did we go?
OH YEAH KEBABS ahahah
the famous mitcham kebabs
they're nice but like WHATS ALL THE OBSESSION ABOUT GUYS?
anywayy being a leotard he didnt know much cool places other thn parks near his school AHAHHA
so yeah went to park. ate and talkedd♥
then went to maccas to meet up with eric&co
they just came back from JASON DERRUULOOO♥
got driven home at like 4.30 LOL
lame enough to go on msn after
OMGGG


SATURDAY
it was meant to be my KEEP FREE FOR STUDYING DAY
but mum woke me up at 11 telling me to go to LEIs house
so off we went to their pro house with the massive lake as their backyard
SHE SAID WE COULD LEAVE EARLY
but ended up staying till 9pm AHHAAH
should have just gone to city to watch clash of the titans 3D damnnn
but yeah had lunch/dinner played bball and...watched some weird anime thing on his laptop AAHHAHA
ray asked me earlier to go to MMAs house partyy but i ceebs
BUTT got home and he called and NAT WAS ON THE OTHER END LOL
how could you say no to "SUNNYYYY COME HERE I MISS YOUUU"
ahahah so i got picked up like 15mins later
arrived at MMAs house and i was like 1 of 2 sober people there
jojo and a few others sobered up later on so helped them be BOUNCERS!!
grrr was slightly annoyed at something in the end.
but whatever
wooo
anywayygot dropped home at like 1am


SUNDAY
went over to nats house to girltime with anthea and nat
had yummeh chicken for dinnerr
then started to get ready for the night
em came over and we prepared to leave for LUXYGIRLS@COLONIAL!!
met up with jason terr shawn chris and marcus on the train
went over to shotaros for PREs
got to colonial at like 10
and the line was frkn MASSIVEE
ended up getting in with the girls after 2 frkn hours in my heels
mm had a bit of drama with the others so the night was pretty much crap
and then saw leotard so that DEFINITELY made my night crappier
JKS :D :D
made the night worthwhile :)
luxy girls wernt even that great
i think the girls at the club were wayy prettier aHAHAH
ANYWAYY didnt like it overall
cos had to keep going up and down the stairs
plus so many randoms there ergh
but saw CB! and his sexy gf, LOL minh, YOURAN, eric, steff, sarah, and a few others
left before 5 to go December which was were the other guys were
:( got a bit emotional AHAHAH embarrassinggg
but yeah sooo glad it was sorted out♥♥
they left and we stayed back with jared and steven for a bit
went to eat hungryjacks
then despite the fact that we were perfectly capable of training home since the trains were up and running again and we were all FINE. jared chucked us in a cab
crashed once we got to nats house and yeahh

MONDAYY
went straight from nats house to glen and got a lift with fiona to adams place in bh
was meant to be a 'asean meeting' but ended up just eating drinking and fooling around
started the centurion a like 8:30?
ahah i didnt join in cos EWW BEER!!
but adam made me and jess some mixed drinks
LOLOLOL HONORABLE MENTION TO CHRIS
FOR MUNTING ON THE 3RD SHOT
AHAHAH FUNNYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

anywayy they like PAUSED the centurion and went to the park
dont ask why they would do thatt
hung around the park for a while
then they finished the centurion
ONLY 4 MADE IT?
(and no chris you dont count cos you munted on the 3rd shot)
all drove to kebabs
then on the way back mum ruined the night by being pissed off at me :(
came to pick me up from adams at like 12:30 LOL

TUESDAY
hm so stayed home during the day
then persuaded mum to drive me to nats house so we could go to lincolns party
oHOHOHO got there at like 9?
saw dalena jade linh chris shawn balhblahblahh
hm interesting night thats all i'll say


WEDNESDAY
LOL WAS MEANT TO BE STUDY DAY BUT EPIC FAIL
spent 20mins on part of my group project
thats it
I FAIL SO BAD
and i gotta wake up at 8am tmr too
wait..its TODAY :O

okay guys that was preeetty long
sorry eHEHHEHHEH
but yeah
i am NOT going to drink until asean ball
my poor liver
and OMG NEED TO ACTUALLY STUDY COS EXAMS ARE NEXT FRIDAY!!!!!!
and sitevisit on wed too!! ahahha so nervous/excited
ALFRED HOSPITAL!!
omgg if only it was the royal childrens instead

i WAS going to chuck in some deep stuff about how i feel so much more responsible for all my actions and stuff and the whole 'im and adult now?' thing
but its 3am and im kinda getting ceebs
so we'll leave that to another time yeah?

& just incase you accuse me of not doing enough shoutouts for you in my blog
LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.LEOTARD.
>:]

NOT GLADWRAP truee?? :):)

OKIES BEDTIME FOR MOONYMOON
(btw 1447 words roughly WOOO!!)



♥
s