101

Today (or rather the day that just past a few minutes ago) 
marks the 100th day you have left.

So technically...right now is the start of 101 days without you.

And it still doesnt feel real.

I kind of dont want it to...

I wonder if you are disappointed in me?

Because I'm disappointed in myself.

All the things you did, 

and wanted me to learn, 

was so I could become a stronger person.

And yet...I have become weak

Fragile.

100 days later, I still cry at night sometimes.

I still blame you.

I still feel guilty.

But what if you leaving was also meant

to push me one step closer to being 

stronger, more independent, 

the person you want me to be?

I never got the chance to say a proper goodbye

but if I did...then I would most certainly tell you

I love you.

6.7.10

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Just to clarify things
not everything in my blog is like about romance and shizz
for example this blog isnt 
Please dont try and relate everything to my lovelife