the word that perfectly summarizes my mood atm is FUCK
which i would prefer not to use but PHUCK doesnt seem to quite fit
also seeing as my mood is shit + im pmsing + shit keeps happening...excuse me if i use repetition of swearwords ok cos they seem to make a better point :)
well basically
im fucking pissed
i would be pissed at you. but i know its not your fault
so instead i just alternate between being pissed at you and pissed at me :)
oh btw this is AFTER the extreme emoness which im sure is going to come back and haunt me very soon
ok i dont give a crap if i sound like some whiney little brat emo
but my life is shit and i dont know how i got here
i mean did you NOT know the implications of acting this way?
i mean COME ONNNNNNNN
GRRRRR
BUT THEN AGAIN NONE OF THIS IS YOUR FAULT
its all my bloody fault omfg
memememememyselfandi
yes thats right once again the fool digs herself into a hole thats too tight to get out of
ok so im left here
not knowing what to do
and going all boohoo one moment then RAWR the next moment
and this just HAS to come at this perfect timing when i already have crappy stuff to worry about
WHY am i so damn stupid? like seriously
ok i refuse to let myself keep crashing everytime something happens
BUT I CANT DAMN HELP IT
and now im not going to be able to concentrate on anything
I MEAN WHY THE HELL WOULD I BE SO STUPID AS TO NOT DO ANY STUDY WHEN FRKN EXAMS ARE FRKN 2MONTHS AWAY
you know what
if i knew exactly what you were thinking or what you wanted or what you need
then i'd know what to do
but now im like stuck
AND YES I SOUND LIKE A BITCH BUT THATS COS IM AT THE PEAK OF MY PISSDOM RIGHT NOW AND I WANT TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF IT BEFORE I START FEELING ALL EMO AND LAME AGAIN
omg this is so unfair seriously
i wonder...was it planned? or did it suddenly pop into your strangestrange head while you were eating a ham sandwich
maybe i'll have a inspirational POP of my own when i eat my damn sandwich next time
ok NOTE TO WHOEVER READS THIS if anyone does;
if you have a problem with someone. tell them. cos that way you can solve it without them going WTF ARE YOU DOING and it might actually HELP the situation instead of screwing it up
plan x looks more and more inviting
i mean like if im going to be depressed anyway i might as well double the depressness and just go the full way
this week i swear is so unlucky
ok if i wasnt such a chicken i would run away right now
from everything
to like that lil island in singapore or something like that
omg unfortunately my life isnt as cool as the chick in boysoverflowers
omfg how the fuck am i meant to study now
oh im screwed
wish i was like sushi...study is her distraction
im like the opposite...stuff like this just distracts me from studies
oh man after doing so shit in the sac and pmsing THIS had to happen.. THEN MUM HAD TO JUST BE THE ICING ON THE CAKE
i am seriously inches away from bursting
somethings gotta give.. i swear
i cant keep up with all of it
OMG ITS ALL MY FAULT WHAT DID I DO WRONG WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
why does it have to be like this
i mean did you have to go the the extreme :(
why why why why whyyy
HOW DID IT GET HERE
okokok its my fault its all my fault
can we just you know be normal
cant we all be happyfamily yay no worries kinda thing??
i have my assumptions
which i wish are totally wrong and off track
but they seem to be a perfect fit atm
sigh
will whatever your doing make you happy?
i mean will it solve whatever you need to solve?
if it makes you happy if its what you want
then i'll try tank it
will it really?
man i wish i knew what you were thinking right now
are you even slightly upset about what your doing?
or does it make you feel better
am i the only one being lame
LOL no wait i think i know the answer
yes i over dramatize stuff
so this is prob the same yer?
i mean i could like wake up and then realise it was just a misunderstanding yer?
despite all the damn evidence that even i, the slow one, picked up
and why am i not writing this in my diary damn
stupid diary have to handwrite OMGG takes me forever
well yes well
im screwed
and i need a EXIT plan
anyone? someone?
omg just to think only yesterday we were still discussing ...-.-
i hope this helps you
cos its screwing me up
i hope this foolishness stops soon
because i would really appreciate being able to concentrate on my studies when i need to
ie the next 2months?
and yes this isnt making me concentrate
=.=
unless i get my brain washed :O
BAHAHHAHH
sigh no
well im off
mass D&M coming upp
i am sooooo going to stick pins and voodoo you next time i get pissed =.=
OH MY GOD THIS IS SO CHILDISH
=.=
which i would prefer not to use but PHUCK doesnt seem to quite fit
also seeing as my mood is shit + im pmsing + shit keeps happening...excuse me if i use repetition of swearwords ok cos they seem to make a better point :)
well basically
im fucking pissed
i would be pissed at you. but i know its not your fault
so instead i just alternate between being pissed at you and pissed at me :)
oh btw this is AFTER the extreme emoness which im sure is going to come back and haunt me very soon
ok i dont give a crap if i sound like some whiney little brat emo
but my life is shit and i dont know how i got here
i mean did you NOT know the implications of acting this way?
i mean COME ONNNNNNNN
GRRRRR
BUT THEN AGAIN NONE OF THIS IS YOUR FAULT
its all my bloody fault omfg
memememememyselfandi
yes thats right once again the fool digs herself into a hole thats too tight to get out of
ok so im left here
not knowing what to do
and going all boohoo one moment then RAWR the next moment
and this just HAS to come at this perfect timing when i already have crappy stuff to worry about
WHY am i so damn stupid? like seriously
ok i refuse to let myself keep crashing everytime something happens
BUT I CANT DAMN HELP IT
and now im not going to be able to concentrate on anything
I MEAN WHY THE HELL WOULD I BE SO STUPID AS TO NOT DO ANY STUDY WHEN FRKN EXAMS ARE FRKN 2MONTHS AWAY
you know what
if i knew exactly what you were thinking or what you wanted or what you need
then i'd know what to do
but now im like stuck
AND YES I SOUND LIKE A BITCH BUT THATS COS IM AT THE PEAK OF MY PISSDOM RIGHT NOW AND I WANT TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF IT BEFORE I START FEELING ALL EMO AND LAME AGAIN
omg this is so unfair seriously
i wonder...was it planned? or did it suddenly pop into your strangestrange head while you were eating a ham sandwich
maybe i'll have a inspirational POP of my own when i eat my damn sandwich next time
ok NOTE TO WHOEVER READS THIS if anyone does;
if you have a problem with someone. tell them. cos that way you can solve it without them going WTF ARE YOU DOING and it might actually HELP the situation instead of screwing it up
plan x looks more and more inviting
i mean like if im going to be depressed anyway i might as well double the depressness and just go the full way
this week i swear is so unlucky
ok if i wasnt such a chicken i would run away right now
from everything
to like that lil island in singapore or something like that
omg unfortunately my life isnt as cool as the chick in boysoverflowers
omfg how the fuck am i meant to study now
oh im screwed
wish i was like sushi...study is her distraction
im like the opposite...stuff like this just distracts me from studies
oh man after doing so shit in the sac and pmsing THIS had to happen.. THEN MUM HAD TO JUST BE THE ICING ON THE CAKE
i am seriously inches away from bursting
somethings gotta give.. i swear
i cant keep up with all of it
OMG ITS ALL MY FAULT WHAT DID I DO WRONG WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
why does it have to be like this
i mean did you have to go the the extreme :(
why why why why whyyy
HOW DID IT GET HERE
okokok its my fault its all my fault
can we just you know be normal
cant we all be happyfamily yay no worries kinda thing??
i have my assumptions
which i wish are totally wrong and off track
but they seem to be a perfect fit atm
sigh
will whatever your doing make you happy?
i mean will it solve whatever you need to solve?
if it makes you happy if its what you want
then i'll try tank it
will it really?
man i wish i knew what you were thinking right now
are you even slightly upset about what your doing?
or does it make you feel better
am i the only one being lame
LOL no wait i think i know the answer
yes i over dramatize stuff
so this is prob the same yer?
i mean i could like wake up and then realise it was just a misunderstanding yer?
despite all the damn evidence that even i, the slow one, picked up
and why am i not writing this in my diary damn
stupid diary have to handwrite OMGG takes me forever
well yes well
im screwed
and i need a EXIT plan
anyone? someone?
omg just to think only yesterday we were still discussing ...-.-
i hope this helps you
cos its screwing me up
i hope this foolishness stops soon
because i would really appreciate being able to concentrate on my studies when i need to
ie the next 2months?
and yes this isnt making me concentrate
=.=
unless i get my brain washed :O
BAHAHHAHH
sigh no
well im off
mass D&M coming upp
i am sooooo going to stick pins and voodoo you next time i get pissed =.=
OH MY GOD THIS IS SO CHILDISH
=.=
♥SUNdae
